No metaphors are need from this time onwards in this song.

Are we looking for the ones we've hurt, just to forgive us in the future?

Every now and then I get the feeling like I've left something behind me. Like I've tied a piece of string around my finger hoping this will remind me, of the places I've been through.

when you're down, down, down.
Okay so today was as good as I anticipated. Tomorrow, maybe even better? :) fingers crossed.

Habits that put yours to shame.

We were lovers
Just 24 hours ago
Could have been forever
But I guess we'll never know.
24 hours ago.

So complicated.

I'm up so fking early for a talk in school. Is calvin klein underwear worth the money? Just a random thought.

I have great hopes for today, with some luck, it'll deliver.

this is war

I don't know what's the matter with myself.. I'm starting to believe its incurable.

Caught Fame today. It was quite different. It wasn't razzle dazzle like I expected. It didn't have a climatic plot, or a strong lead actor/actress thing going on. It was more real, and narrative in a way. I kinda liked it..

Then, bbq at HC's place was quite funny. Haha all in all, a pretty long day.

sleep like a child
peaceful and deep

He says don't think, don't talk, don't think, don't talk!

But you, you give me the electric twist
and it kicks, and it kicks like a pony.
And true, you might get away with it,
It's a risk, it's a risk yeah.
Because it kicks yeah, it really kicks yeah.

Shizz it's actually 1 am. Not uhh 8 something like blogger says. Cause I forgot to hit post. Haha today I went swimming at the old condo. I love that place. Mmm let's see. Here I am watching all these awesome acoustic renditions on youtube and ARGHHGH I wish I could play the guitar. But unlikely that'll manifest in any form anytime soon. I'm so bad at that instrument. Sa has clb oral tmr so she can't come over to jam :(:(:( SIAN. I need an acoustic guitarist on speedial. Together, we shall conquer the world! Oh this afternoon I ordered my touch :D It'll be here on thurday.

you should be wilder, you're no fun at all

Noisettes Never Forget You Ellen Show 092409

told you they were something!!!

I'm what they call a _________

Oh golly. Why is it Alyssa has a habit of running into my, can I say, expired romances? She's even got a photo of the girl with her hands all over Damian and she sent it to me! Haha omgosh. It really is pretty incriminating, I wanna post it up here. So tempting. But nevermind blogger photo uploader takes forever.

Pretty freaky, they were just a few trains behind mine. Imagine if i just decided to pop into cheers to get a drink before boarding the train, I might've witnessed all of that. I wonder what I would've done eh. Hmm it would have been awkward, yeah. But more funny than anything I think. Yikes it might've been more uncomfortable for his new chick than for me actually. Considering I was in my element tonight (read-SMOKIN'), heheh. Oh no it would've been most uncomfortable for him, all things considered.

What would you have done? :)

I'd probably have made small talk, smile, laugh. Easy. Oh if you wanna see the photo I still got it. Pretty hot stuff going on in that train cabin.

Today I spent so much $$$$!!! :D Yay shopping is yummy. Oh oh and today for the first time I saw how they made those rolled-out hard candies at Central. Yknow the ones where they can write words inside for you custom-made? It's so cool! Haha I was pretty hypnotized by the stretching and rolling and pulling and whatnot. Well other than that, I spent quite alot at the flea and had a really yummo lunch+kickass desert with boonie (EARL GREY ICE CREAM WITH RASPBERRY JELLY AND MILK CHOCOLATE SHARDS) It was sooooo good :) The surprise birthday dinner for debs and jo went pretty smoothly too, if I may say so myself. Fish&co really know how to embarrass the september babies. Haha and drats I think I'm addicted to online shopping.

I've been twisting and turning in a space that's too small.

Eeeeeww! Yuck yuck yuck. What goes around really does come around after all :( I mean well, its not that I didn't expect it.. Just. Eew!

I've only got myself to blame. But no matter, I can handle it. I'm gonna suck it up and put it behind me like a big girl.

After I get outta bed, I'm gonna hit town with boonie. God, I need to get some fresh air. Its strange how somethings you know are so so wrong, but you won't acknowledge the wrongness til you've done it.. Of course by then it's too late. There are trade-offs, and then there are trade-offs.

Last night kevin asked me what I've been needing to hear from him. Its been so weirdly sanitized and clinical when we interact. I'm relieved he had the good sense to finally bring it up. I hope we can make this friendship right this time around.

You got me crawling out of my own skin.

Big white lights shine bright, like I'm on the tv.

Interesting. I still have sunday free. What sort of havoc shall I wreak on sunday? Or rather, who's? ;)

I love this feelin' inside of me now!

I'm gonna live forever

Yes I'm a whole lotta trouble baby,
Just like a kid in a candy store.

You think you're loving, but I want to be free.

When I get to Warwick Avenue
We'll spend an hour but no more than two


I wished for better,
but I didn't want the train to come.
Now it's departed,
Seems like we never started. (Which is a good thing!)

Hahah twisting words in my own head for some self-indulgent light-headedness. I'm a happy camper.

LAST PAPER TOMORROW

You've been hit by a smooth criminal.

flower teacups and rich chocolate muffins

I have not studied for tmr's test.

But I hope I fall into easy sleep tonight. Stress insomnia maketh a deflated Therese. I used to be so alive.

Well, that's me. I don't know bout you cause you've all but vanished! Silly boy, I hope your exams haven't turned you into a hermit. Actually I rather that than, well, nevermind.

Goodnight streetlight people <3

totally fucked

ugh phonecall I rejected it but still can't get back to sleep now headache tmr die.

Strumming my pain with your fingers,
Singing my life with your words.
You're killing me softly with your song.

tears in heaven

Which part of myself even feels seventeen man.. I'm act like I'm way older yearning to be young again. And in a warped way that makes perfect sense.

Holy cow. I'm turning 18 soon. No!!! :(

I'm kinda worn out today. Wasn't much productive studying out with siwei.. And now I'm sleepy. But before I go, I shall place that strategic post-it on my mirror for tomorrow:

"wear bra"

Am I hardcore or what!!

Its really late at night but I'm doing math :D hoho. Anyways just now, round 10, Andrew and his friend Porter decided to pop by on their bikes cause they were on their way to changi somewhere. It was nice talking :)

I finished my book already. And the guilt trip for reading has begun. Hence I'm studying right now. Sigh, the shortcomings of a human psyche.

I don't think my life has come to a halt. I'm very much on the move.

Ergh.

I know it should get better once I'm out. I just hate the feeling. All my life I've managed to convince myself that I'm not like that. This goes against everything I stand for! Gahh. But whatever. People change. I'm not compromising anything.

Right?

Sigh I probably am.. But what's a girl to do when she realises, she's been so so wrong all this while?

Oh wells. I need to go shopping real bad :(

Earlier this morning I received one of them heavy breathing anonymous calls. Haha lasted like 2 seconds.

We are not what you think we are, we are golden :)

I know I shouldn't do it, but I do it anyways. Its not my fault your reaction is always so priceless. Just when I thought I'd seen it all. I just love getting a rise outta you :)

The smiley was a good touch, eh?

Haha okay can somebody tell me WHY I feel like prelims are over?? I've not studied a single thing this weekend! Haha evidently I am lacking stamina. How will I survive the 3-week long As? I think I'll focus more on math and physics.. Geog is pretty unsalvageable, but I don't think that's an orthodox word.

I put up this really cute picture of xing jie and I on facebook. Heheh. His reaction was "do you remember there was once we were walking in circles and I fell and hit my head. lol."

Haha. Give the next person you see a great big bear hug!!

Thank you, thankyouverymuch.

HELLO BLOGOSPHERE :D I'm totally diggin' on Joan Osborne's cover of Sonofapreacherman (Haha I love mushing the words up like that). Her cover is as good as the Joss Stone one, but in a different way. Hers is kool. Joss' is power. But yeah watevs. I'mma put both vids up :)

Daddy's home from China.

Oh tonight, I had dinner with lonelyboy92 at The Soup Spoon. Then we had ice cream. S'bout time, too. Haha.

"Hopeless is like infinity y'know. You can approach it, but once you're there it's all infinity. No varying amounts to it."

Hopeless is hopeless :) I am VERY wise for my age.

The BEAUTY of posting from the computer.

Joan Osborne - Son Of A Preacher Man

Joss Stone - Son of a Preacher Man

Only me, only you, and the band.

Oh. My. Golly.

I've never felt a saturday more beautiful. It's raining outside and the air is so chilled and fresh. I love that my window is so huge and the view overlooks the neighbourhood and forested area behind. I could sit here and revel in this quiet perfection all day.

A perfect saturday morning.

My heart is in agreement.

Tell me, what thoughts do you hold?

It's just emotions.

Sigh a familiar ache in my heart. Reading about Damian's romancing of his new girlfriend, does make me feel sad indeed. I hope like hell she means more to him than I ever did to him. At least then they'd have a shot at happiness. His ex from before me is still omni-present, of course. Making things difficult for his new girl too I suppose. Damian and his ex, haha a real screwed up pair I think. Watching them back and forth, it gets tiring. He's as much to fault as she is, no matter how he tries to convince himself otherwise. Well I'm glad Damian has helped me slam this chapter of my life shut. He's a good thing to leave behind.

I just finished an apple and the core is resting on my lap as I type this. Oh I have to get something off my chest. Hahaha its retarded so after you read it please don't judge me! Today.. I went to school for my physics and econs paper, braless.

Now I can explain. Its a simplest matter of me forgetting to put it on in the morning, and not realising til I was in the car on the way to school. Hahaha omg this is so embarrassing. Well yeah. Joys of having small boobs. I wore my jacket the whole day so it made no difference. Hahaha I can't believe I just blogged all that. You can laugh about this but I'm not up to discussing any part of it, alright? Haha especially if you're a school mate of mine! Oh gosh. Who forgets to put on a bra in the morning man.

Me, evidently.

By a mile, THE most retarded thing I've ever done in my life. I still can't believe I was secure enough to walk round school like nothing was the matter. Dang.

Well, that's all folks. I'm going to return to my thoughts of being honest about our emotions and knowing how to face them. I'm currently working on "reasons why a liar will always lie" and "acknowledging a loss does not illustrate weakness."

By the way, today I was having this most delicious daydream about someone from school. Haha shit. I ought to add " appropriate thoughts for school hours" to the list.

Being good isn't always easy,

no matter how hard I try.
When he started sweet talkin to me,
Tellin me that everything was alright,
Kiss and tell me everything's alright.
Can I get away again tonight?

Well. I have a problem. Its kind of a sticky matter, it could grow into something far more dangerous if I'm not careful. Its my own fault I guess. Now I've put me in a spot, and I can't see no easy solution.

That aside, I'm so unprepared for the papers tomorrow. I've been lumbering the day away, not being productive at all...

The only boy who could ever reach me, was the son of a preacher man.

finally, I'm out of juice.

I'm not kidding. I've said everything there is to say. Well the parts that I'm allowed to say anyways. Today I ate a whole tube of ferrero rondnoir.. It was yummy.

Y'know what, I think I'll have an early night.

If there's one thing I know for sure now, its that there's no point holding back. Sometimes there really isn't. I mean you're sitting there in your chair feeling lonely but not realising it, I'm here on my phone, typing this in the dark.

We're all just barking mad, aren't we?

Cause we all have our hang-ups, and we all need a cuddle.

You miss who? No, just now. You just said it. Who do you miss?

Who's that?

All you gotta do is ask.

Okay since I promised a young, impressionable, volatile boy that I'd do this for him...

T: So what greener pastures have you moved on to?

A: No one currently

T: Shame

A: Were you intending a pun?
A: Like shame 'same'

T: Haha no I wasn't
T: But quirky observation nonetheless
T: Credit is due

A: Can you post this on your blog? :):):) hahahaha
A: Minus the 3 gay smiley faces and the hahahaha

T: Okay I will

A: YES!!

Haha y'know august, probably a grand total of 2 people in the world think our conversations are amusing.

Anyway snap back to reality, boom speed gravity. Today was math and econs. No wait make that econs followed by math. I really can't fathom why on earth I had it in my head that math was first and econs was second in the afternoon. Sigh, fluster and dusty breezes. Well econs was not too shabby, I did 2 questions properly and the last one was haha weak. But if I don't screw up case studies on friday, a C might actually be attainable. Math was well, the usual.

So now I'm taking a short break. Enough about exams.

If you need me, all you have to do is ask. I know I don't do this usually... And we don't make it a point to weave our everydays together like, conventional beings. And we don't do stuff much, at least not much anymore, but though sometimes you get on my nerves. If you need me, all you have to do is ask.

I'm totally digging on Juxtapose. Funky and mellow at the same time. One local act I'd pay for. I wish I could meet them and sit around. And maybe make music. Shit their sound is really good. Go to their myspace and listen please.

Once in awhile I meet someone who completely changes the way I see things. And it's like reaching out and asking, will you be my brand new eyes?

Fine August, the score is 2-1.

But I'm real!

Geog paper was a total eurgh. Didn't have enough time to finish all my (c) parts satisfactorily.

When I say jump, you say HOW HIGH.

Oh please. Another one falls in tandem, I told you I'm a trendsetter! \m/

Haha I live very much in the present, thank you.

Aiyo I just read this blog. Oh man. Makes me cringe when people overuse big big words. Like one per sentence? That really doesn't up your literary cred at all man.

Once upon a time, there lived a boy and his name was Dylan.

With breathtaking precision and zeal

Oh horror. Last night I had this most engaging dream.. Which promptly evolved into a nightmare. The thing is, as much as we're blind to the fact, whatever we do is irreversible. Each breath is a moment you'll never live through again. So the next time you make the decision to do something, know that once done, no one has the power to retract anything. So live big, live fearsome. Do yourself and the people around you justice.

I'm lying here in bed, and all I can think is, what am I waiting for?

My source of transient joy has been missing this whole week. Its kinda annoying. When a person doesn't realise how much they mean to you, and you're too afraid to let them know.

I wonder what's going on in your side of the world.

And I wonder what the future has in store for us... As long as it's nothing like my nightmare, we'll be alright ;)

Synonyms, and double meanings, and metaphors, and innuendos, and painful irony that you can't escape from.

2 days from prelims and I haven't touched macro Econs yet. Such is my combustability.


I got a good look at her face today.

I got a good look at the whole of her actually.

Sigh.

From now on, I only perform with barefeet.

You left your keys under my bed, left a thumping in my head.

If I ever get the chance to perform again anyways.

I just had my grandma's chicken curry for dinner. Better that what you had, I'm guessing.

If it's forever then what's to prove?
(As for the one-liners.. I run dry.)

Haha why do I like to make it so complicated. Catch me when I fall, or did I dive at your delight? In my heart I can fly. The constellations tonight are so fearsomely bright. I have no fear left, cause I am Atticus now. I'll go insane. I'm the hardest instrument that you've ever had to play. So why don't we fall into the waves? Can't you see how my heart yearns to misbehave? Haha perfection :)

Everything means something different to everyone.

Everybody get down make love!

I think I've gone on overdrive with the whole rediscovering music thing. Haha I'm now obsessing over Queen. Y'know the concept of a rock concert is really quite awesome and mind-blowing. Technical things aside, isn't it unreal how so many people, their energy, the beat, the pulse, the whole atmosphere of the place, just syncs and burns on? Like magic. And there's something raw and genuine about rock concerts of the past, like the audience really believed in the music.

Everybody play the game.

I miss the feeling of good music.

Okay today I'm supposed to complete macro econs. Plus the remainder of hydrology that I couldn't cover.. And I've math tuition in abit. Sigh too much work, too little time.

out
Therese Intolerable

This week, in Therese & Augustine's weird and wild conversations...

A:
:) Sticks and stones may breaky my bones but words will never hurt me.
I love how that rhymes.
T:
Words may cut with angered art, but silence breaks the heart.
That, is the essence of it.
A:
Okay
I therefore conclude.
Therese's wisdom >>>> Augustine's wisdom
T:
Hahaa can I put that on my blog pleaseeee

Haha I was high last night running through ideas for our mini musical with boon yew. Anyway, if you're wondering, I won't be able to finish studying in time for prelims =( it's not humanly possible. Oh wells. I'll just hold my breath and plunge into the deep end I guess. Nothing new.

Ain't no more honey from this bee.

You got me beggin'

I can't get up, I'm not kidding when I say I'm drifting in and out of sleep right now.. Sigh tuition. Can't. Find. Willpower. To. Move. I had some strange dream last night.. Still rmb bits of it..

Last night was fun.. I'll tell you more about it later

We'll crank that stereo, even when the speakers blow

HI! :) This is coming from the computer not the phone. Anyway I was listening to Elbow's cover of Amy Winehouse's Back to Black and oh gosh this line.


"You go back to her, and I'll go back to,
I'll go back to black."


WOW. I mean, just. Wow. It's like woosh all the feelings and sad tastes come rushing back to your head. Never again, that much I can promise myself. That's the important bit, ain't it? ;)

Oh! SPORE IDOL IS ON. scrambles to the tv. BYE!

A strategic, pragmatic, non-lewd arrangement between 2 willing parties, that makes complete sense.

Ever since I could do it on my phone, I do it so often. But that's okay. It's my party and I cry if I want to!

G'mornin' world. I'm reporting live from under the sheets again. On the itinerary today, the whole hydrology chapter, and.. micro econs essays. With some slogging and a lot of faith, I might cover everything.

I've been looping my Velveteen Rabbit soundtrack for 2 days now. Its been trickling in the background as I study, as I sleep, as I do unproductive things like talk on the phone, everything. Its basically an emotive hr-long piano soundtrack that complements a story narration, which btw was voiced over by meryl streep (!!). So I've been playing the version without the narration. Music does strange things to me :)

Oh something exciting happened yesterday. Haha my skirt came in the mail! An I love it :D I think I discovered another one of life's pleasures. Which reminds me, SHOULD I GET AN IPOD TOUCH?? AHHH.

I've got someone who believes in me

Perhaps you traded off a long-term happiness for a short-term pleasure.

But that's a choice you make.
I don't think it's a shame,
That I'll never be in your arms again.
I am twice who I was.

August: I'm a trailblazer!
August: nice.
Therese: augustine shall now be synonym for deluded.
August: YES
Therese: nice.
August: I've always wanted one.
Therese: you're welcome.
August: thank you
Therese: y'know you can read the last few lines of our convo & it'd make sense
Therese: as in.
Therese: backwards.

Haha life's quirks.

I'm going to bed. Night, world :)

All these sexual jargon and colloquial lingo.

y'know, I've got a very good idea of how life would be like after As. Or even in uni, for that matter. Is that dangerous? Cause what if it doesn't live up to expectations? But its always nice to have something to look forward to.

I'm down with a nasty case of sticky bed. I can't get up.. How curious. But really ought to get going. I'm behind in my geog revision! :( which means econs will suffer cause of it. Sigh. Bleak.

Then again, I'm young and unstoppable.

It all comes down to action.

I'm out studying. But I'm blogging on my phone. Haha I was just struck by this thought about certain blogs and their writers, so I'm here to unload it.

Ever pondered about the success of a few select blogs? Success meaning hmm numerous hits? Being able to reach out to a wide audience. I think what makes people read is the bordering-on-voyeuristic pleasure they feel when the intimate details of someone's life is privy to them. Hmm but that's just one part of it of course, I'm just. Exploring. Making little links in my brain.

I'm sorry I'm a little late,
You know the stripes on a tiger are hard to change!

Oh yeah another thing I wanted to talk about, my frighteningly inaccurate judge of character. Haha seriously, how does one reconcile with all those flaws. I feel acutely relieved that I'm where I am now. Shiver me timbers.

People you've kissed, people you've lost, and the ones that you might not ever remember, what's the use?

Spent the night talking to Damian on the phone, catching up about what's transpired this past few weeks. I'm an amazingly cool ex girlfriend. That much's for sure.

We know when shouldn't do it, but we do it anyways.
We know we might regret it, but it seemed okay.

Tell me, tell me, tell me when will we learn,
We love it and we live it and we watch it burn.

Anyway methinks he has issues. Loads. But its no longer my concern. Shizzz physics tuition. I gotta haul my ass outta bed now.

I'm not who I was last september

I'm beginning to see why you are the way you are. Girl, my heart goes out to you.

one more thing

I'm refreshingly cavelier about the fact that the examination of my lifetime is just round the corner.

Hmm...

Ignorance is your New Best Friend

Therese Neo looking for love ;D

Haha can you believe that's my facebook status right now? Unbelievable. It should be yours too, though. Kid, don't take yourself so seriously man. Live life at the edge. Haha. I guess that's something I'm not qualified to impose upon anyone.

BACK to my geog readings.

Don't upset the rhythm, don't you dare!

Whatcha drinkin'? Rum or whisky?

I just spent the past few hours printing geog resources. Oh and cooking dinner for the grandma pretty much qualified as a success cause well, it was not bad. Haha and I had a good time raiding aunty J's closet.

Word, I just made my virgin online purchase :O :O :O

I was so serious, y'know my boyfriend's mother nearly had a heart attack.

I happen to think her looks are real rad.

We just got swallowed up
You know I didn't forget you
We just got swallowed up by the whole damn world

Don't you know that you're my joy,
Always remember me ;)

always remember me

Think I can absorb the entire physical geog syllabus by tuesday? Well they don't call me superhuman for nothing.

:D

I just finished lunch. Which comprised of this giant apple, and oreos. Cause there's no real food at home.

Isn't it confusingly sad how, when you have a vested interest in something, it robs you of all objectivity? When you retract yourself and squint from afar, the horror slowly dawns on you... You've been rooting for the wrong guy all along.

I just got swallowed up, by the whole damn world

Under Siege

Not sure why, but last night I had trouble sleeping again. Haha maybe its time for another furniture overhaul.

Good morning, world :) it's friday and I'm feeling content with life.

Hey :)

Exciting day tomorrow! Haha oh man. I'm such a schoolgirl.

SHIZZZZ THIS IS THE REAL DEAL. i WANT THEIR RECORD PLEASE.

I'm gonna let it do all the talking..

well Damian seems to be moving on at lightning speed. Hmm.. I don't know what to think. Haha I guess it was a self-fulfilling prophecy? Tell myself something enough, it'll happen. Wise of us to make a clean break then. I won't be talking to him or his whoever anytime soon. I suppose I was right about my whole, I'll-just-be-a-glitch-in-your-eyes theory. Shouldn't have allowed myself to let him convince me otherwise eh. Ah boys boys, all the same. So point is, sometimes, yeah you gotta plunge in headlong with your eyes closed. But most times, no one will catch you if you fall. That's life, people!

Hmm k I hafta get out of bed! Before jy calls up and yells at me..

Let me show you how you do it! ;)

the boy talks in his sleep <3

hehe I should be studying but...

YOU'RE NOT THE ONE FOR ME.

It's so weird! I'm on my computer and I.. Don't feel like blogging! Haha maybe it's cause I just watched Spore Idol and I've SO MANY THINGS TO SAY that I çan't decide where to start. Like info overload, system shutdown.

Today, I CLEARED MY INBOX!!!!! Phew. (so so proud of myself k)

Someone please talk to me about sg idol. haha I'm bursting with comments. arghhh kill me and make me a judge on that show alreadyyyyy

I can write about anything.. As long as its nothing.

I'm in bed. Thinking about tomorrow. Freaking out about it.. Life sucks that way. I was reading some old archives and learning more about myself. I've grown alot. I had such great sandcastles made of clouds in my head. I had so much hope. This time, I was wiser, sharper, but still not enough. Anyway I hope tmr will go well? I'm tired of believing.

I don't even wish to say it like it is cause it shames me to be weak. What I really want to say is

No I can't type it, not in this space.

I get to see my happypill tmr :) Send some warmth rushing to my face.

Like a phoenix sitting with her kleenex.

I wonder if you've noticed but I've grown fonder of Blogging in bed early in the morning when I just get up, using my phone. You can always tell by the vulgar font and font size cause well, technology has its limitations-I can't change either of those things when I post via mobile.

Its cold. The crisp morning air snakes in through my wide-open window. I can smell the freshness, there's this huge forested plot behind my house anyways. My house sits on a slightly elevated plot cause this area is pretty hilly? So when I lean against the cool metal grills of my window, I can look out to the lanes that stretch out behind us. I love it when it storms too.. I like to press my face against the visiting winds and drown out my thoughts with the sounds of the downpour. It makes me feel so small.

So right now I'm huddled here under my sheets, where its nice and toasty, and inevitably, my brain goes on overdrive. But that's okay.. Today's not a day for introspection and seasonality of moods. Today's a day for consolidation! And focus. Cause tmr is the gp paper, and I'm really sick of being stuck in the D-range.

Okay I'm gonna get up now, stretch the weariness out of my supposed-to-be-young bones, and be on my way to the airport. I have a prior engagement.

you got a lotta money but you can't afford the freeway.