My drinks were spiked and the air hung heavy.

That was seriously mortifying. Please remind me to NEVER EVER do that again. Bad move, Therese. Look what you've done.


Sigh.

come on, come out (it all goes passing by)

So today was productive, went to the dentist and cleared some things off my to-buy list. Tomorrow is a friendly vs MJ at their school. I'll get to meet some old friends:) Oh and i've got a lot of school work to complete over the weekend. Like a startling amount. GP essay, PI for PW, econs tutorial, math tutorial, physics tutorial, geog assignment. Which is really one task for every subject i take. Hohumm.

I don't know how i'll find time to complete it all. Saturday's exhausted cause of the friendly, fun-o-rama and then i'm meeting boonie. Sunday is for drowning myself in my new cd. "One Cell in the Sea" by A Fine Frenzy. And yeah i mean literally drown. Noise swimming around me, thoughts getting washed out of my head, drowning in all the kick-ass lyrics.

Hey juniors, chin up and fight to the end. We both know it has been tough, but let's just give sports school something to remember us by.

Are you prepared for the coming days? I want to put everything on pause and shelve it all for awhile. Am i alone?

runnin' a race like a mouse in a cage gettin' nowhere
but i'm trying

I Don't Want You For A Minute

Ryan, in all his innocence and untainted ignorance, fueled me with enough warmth to keep going.

"Make sure you get enough rest, jie."

so here we go again
with all the things we said
and not a minute spent
to think that we'd regret
so we just take it back
these words and hold our breath
forget the things we swore we
meant.

Before I get the wrong idea and go...

Then mum actually uttered these words,
"Do you want to take singing lessons?"
Since when have the parents been so proactive about whatever it is that i do that i don't tell them about that makes me feel like i'm doing it underground?

Hmm. Things are changing around here.

Oh and let me just say my new GP teacher is making me fall in love with the English Language all over again.

Raw

what made you cry on the bus little girl?
why did you cry on the bus little girl?
weren't you never gonna relent?
didn't you say you were strong, made of tougher things?
what made you cry on the bus little girl?

Still Frames

Terra Firma

I have both feet on the ground
Truth is, I'm nowhere-bound
Stealthy trains that hush in the night
Carry my doubts,
My fancies and flights
Oh what was it that made me fly?
Did it stop, or pass me by?
Now i'm down, down with empty
The moving tracks and wind a-plenty
When you first land, land real softly
Next you stand, brush it off lightly
He said take it in and take it slow
The Whys and Hows are just for show
Pushing weights round and round
I've got both feet on the ground.

Cause That's What The Song Says

A slow dinner, a nice new wallet, an evening well spent.

The Deeply Unsettling

Caught Semi Pro and Step Up 2 today. Movies are the kinda things you do when you have nothing better to do. I think. Well i'm kinda drunk now. So yes i shall stop talking.

I know you weren't thinking of me
When you wrote those words
But I know exactly how you feel
And exactly what you mean

Oh btw, in my stupor, i realised that probably close to no one will understand what the "raWkstar" under my About Me section truly refers to. Well its simple. The quote above it came from a girl i know called rakkksha, aka rawkstar :) so yeah. i'm not calling myself a rockstar or anythin like that. just giving credit where credit is due. rakk is one of THE most quotable persons i know.

Take note of the time, please.

Should i give up
Or should i just keep chasing pavement
Even if it leads nowhere


This song's genius.

My Own Person (throw yourself off)

I realise any person reading my blog would have close to no clue about what's really going on in my life, and well, i think different people blog for different reasons. I can't bring myself to spell out details of my day that i highly doubt would interest many, yet at the same time, the slivers of groudless lines that i love to churn out, made pretty by italics, are probably not much more fascinating anyways. I bet i spend a lot more time blogging about blogging, then blogging about things normal people want to relate to.

Are there any people out there who want to come across as vulnerable? I'm just wondering because, and i think i've said this before, you are in control of what others think of you. So are there any who prefer to be seen as small and helpless? Cause i can't understand why anyone'd want to do that. I believe we are all what we choose to be, and saying, with a effete shrug of your shoulders, that this is just the way you are, is something i liken to being irresponsible about your own person. So yeah i AM saying that the way i am, is how i choose it to be, and i make no apologies for the person i strive to be. Somethings we can help, you know? And maybe my resistance (apprehension?) towards so many things is what's keeping me from crossing the line.

Then again, i do appreciate people who blog with light-hearted humour which makes me think of unrehearsed smiles and springs in steps. I shall do more of that in the future, hopefully ;) Why feel heavy, when you can infect others with careless thoughts? I shall unearth the heart and soul of feeling good.

Strum me like a guitar, blow out my amplifier

He had novelties so appeasing
She had tragedies so revealing

I noticed your eyes are always glued to me
Keeping them here, it makes no sense at all

I'm stronger than you, bitch.

So the auditions went okay i guess. other than keith's baby slipping and hitting the ground.

we can go back to when i was nothing to you.
soft spot, soft spot.

Stay drunk all the time

I drive myself insane

Bandage was okay, congrats to Reedeeming the Riot! Haha leon! Looking cute.

I'm back to my I-actually-had-a-lot-to-say-but-now-everything-just-escapes-me habit. It's pissing me off!

hey hey what can i do

A grey sky morning

I absolutely MUST watch The Great Debators. But i don't know when its coming to cinemas here. I suspect sometime during.. say, Christmas? Haha talk about planning ahead.

S Club 7

Who you're gonna love by your lover

I DID IT I DID IT I DID IT. I freakin managed to tell the mother about Delorean! Ahh. I must be such a charmer=D Anyway check out Dude (looks like a lady) by Aerosmith. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GbsBJmx-m2s

yes NOW. CLICK IT!

did i make it that easy
for you to walk right in and out of my
life?

Wild horses, couldn't drag me away.

Graceless lady, you know who I am
You know I can't let you, slide through my hands

Wild horses, couldn't drag me away.
Wild wild horses, we'll ride them some day.

But secretly she wanted him as well.

ECONS TEST ON WEDNESDAY.

Anybody's got any opinions on whether i should try for exco positions in netball or floorball? Well firstly, i know i want to and i know i can, but is the fact that i'm straddling two ccas gonna reduce my chances of holding positions in either one? Secondly, i doubt its possible for me to hold positions in both... Right? So which do i choose? Decisions, decisions.

ECONS TEST ON WEDNESDAY.

Oh ceri if you're reading this, please please please send me the pictures! Yeah the S Club 7 has been cam whoring away during breaks. Awesome-ness. Oh and everybody, i've mastered Almost Lover! Three cheers for me. (I give free performances, audience listens at their own peril.) Jamming with delorean on sunday was Preet-tty Kewl. It's the whole pond thing again, i think too much.

ECONS TEST ON WEDNESDAY.
craptacular.