If it's alright with you, then it's alright with me.

Back from biz camp, which was a blast. By the end of it, I slowly stopped looking at the whole ordeal like an outsider, but more like a member of the bizad family. My og is made up of a cool bunch, and we're meeting for dinner/supper tomorrow. Isn't that nice?

"I just wanted to be near to you and what better way to do that then to have a camp nearer to your school. I love you so much baby. All I want is to be close to you."

What it feels to have someone put you first, and make life-changing decisions for you. I can't begin to describe. All of a sudden we're real and we matter.

Biz Camp 2010

The start of the start has crept up on me. Who would've known? I'm a mix of wonder and excitement now. I used to be able to step into new phases of my life readily and headfirst. But there is a strange force warning me to keep my feet on the ground this time. Something holds me down. Life at nus pretty much starts tomorrow, I only hope I don't have too much fun that my last four days of work when I return will be unbearably SIAN. I need to get my packing done. Wish me luck :)

Hahahaheeheeheehohoho.

(Guess what? You two STILL are the two most stupid people I know.)

I DIDNT GO FOR ETRIAL TODAYYYY. SLEEPY ASS LAZY. SIGH.

Why am I not in bed?

T: I think Tumblr has desensitized me to nudity.
JB: Sorry la I facebook only.

What is the matter with me?

I don't know, but wearing your shirt is comforting.

Weehoo. Today at work, ms manager said "very well done". I'm happy so you get hot picture of soccer players in their skivvies.

They might say hi, and I might say hey. But you shouldn't worry, about what they say, cause they got nothin' on you baby. Nothin' on you.

Melting Chocolate

What do you run away from?

Everybody is strong. Made of tough stuff. But we all have weak spots. Battles we don't fight. Fears we never overcome.

So today I ran, around my estate. Y'know, for exercise. Running, running.

The beauty of a laptop is I can do this in my room, naked.

Yes, beautiful.

Pushed together.

Sometimes you gotta suck up what life hands you. Yknow, just deal.

My Shell and I.

I wasn't unhappy, I wasn't angry, I wasn't even sad. I was just so scared.

Was this the moment? Where everything fell apart? I've been holding my breath for so long, I've forgotten I'm still underwater. Your voice, that tone. Was this the moment?

So, I ran today.

(geeky look of excitement!)

S.O.S

I don't know what to do. I don't know what to do. Dilemma, dilemma. What should I do? What should I do. Tell me what to do, don't tell me what to do. Fuck, just tell me what you're up to. I don't know what to do.

Old text messages.

So, it's been so long since you said
"Well I know what I want, what I want's right here with you."

Fissures and Cracks.

I think when I ws a kid I suppressed most of my emotions, always more acutely aware of what other people felt, with no true display of my own feelings. It's safer that way.

Anyway, night's young. Let's look for something to do.

Oh, fuck no.

In case.

A girl can tell.

The difference between here, and almost here.

What did you say?

If you ain't hated on, you ain't doin' shit.

Happy Birthday to you, may all your wishes and dreams come true.

Thought you wanted it too.

So many ways to love you.

I choked.