Gonna fix the world up!

It's a fine line between changing yourself to be more acceptable and changing yourself to be more digestable. It's one thing to require approval and need people needing you, and quite another just wanting to be understood.

Do you get me?

Okay forget it. I need to blog less when I'm in school (ostensibly here for pw).

Time to cut your nails, missy!

John Wilkes: I predict, sir, that you will die by hanging, or some loathesome disease.

Earl of Sandwich: That depends, my dear sir, on whether I embrace your principles or your mistress!


TODAY I had training (we did intervals), OP rehearsal and OCIP meeting. ANYWAY time for birthdays. October babies of the world unite.
SIU SIU! (23rd october) Love you very muchos. More than your boyfriend ah!
CHING! (28th october) I am not action and I am NOT BIMBO! Hmph.
THONG NUT! (29th october) Stay hawt and stop being such a horny bastard :)

Okay so I'm gonna get on some bus and just tour the country. Or train! The mrt is a wonderous thing. And then I shall have dinner at some far away ulu restaurant, make friends with the chef and get into trouble. Awesome shizz.

Love tastes so much better, when it's cruel

hoho. this is me in V24, my first encounter with an on-screen key board. it's giving me a stiff shoulder.

sunday i went shopping. turned into a food fest of some sorts instead =) ah good times. got a pair of shoes and earrings for the birthday.

k this is getting pointless. ciao

The Other Presentation

Chocolate for the soul

It's been a draggy week. I think going to school at 10 everyday does that to you. But other than that, life is pretty simple right now, just the way I like it. Not much to blog about. I CAN'T WAIT FOR PW TO BE OVER!

Y'know. Some people are very deluded. Some think they're above the common fallacies of youth. Pretending to be worldly, feigning annoyance at the less-inspired. When they get over their sorry selves, they'll see that there's nothing special about them. We are wading in a pool of sameness. You like to post photos of yourself with different facial expressions, I write things that don't make sense. You don't get to call me "emo" or "self-indulgent". Then there are some who have it in their head that everything is about them. DUDE. Get over yourself. I'm. Not. Talking. About. YOU.

okay so sorry had to get that outta my system.

I decided I hate intervals. HATE THEM. Like really really hate them. Which also probably means that it's extremely good for me. God knows how many sets we're gonna do next training. We did 2 the first time, followed by 3, then increased to 5. So umm, next we'll do like 7? KILL ME. Intervals suck so bad :(

swifter higher stronger

Dang, did I say I've not much to blog about?

Love is Hard

OGL interview was weird. Training was fierce, my back and legs are aching now.

Love takes hostages
And gives them pain.
Love gives someone the power to hurt you again and again.
Kicks so hard it breaks your bones
Cuts so deep it hits your soul
Tears your skin and makes your blood flow
Love is hard
If it were easy it wouldn't mean nothing, no.

Sometimes we are mean to the people we love.

So we find ourselves at that point of our lives where every decision we make affects us so intimately, we can't help but feel like we're walking on eggshells. Don't you think we've been holding our breaths for way too long, waiting for something to go devastatingly wrong? Hell, I don't think this is a point of time. This is one drawn out phase of our lives that passes to quickly yet too slowly at the same time. I don't want to feel like I've done nothing, but I don't want to have done too much. Thinking of university applications, higher education, sometimes it feels like my route is all planned out for me, and other times, I feel like a ship without bearings. How is life so stifling yet so uncertain at the same time? I don't want it to be a matter of making the best out of what I have. I want to choose the cards I'll be dealt with. Yet sometimes I feel too tiny to be making choices that determine the rest of my life. I'm only an estimated one fifth of an age I'd possibly live to. How can I be entrusted with me? I am bright. And I am hopeful. Is it enough? At this moment, I feel like I can surely say I know what are the things which are important to me. My priorities are pretty sorted. How are yours? Priorities aside, I haven't figured out what I want. The sooner I find the answer to that question, the clearer the picture shall become. Afterall, we all wanna know where we're heading, don't we?

So scream and let the world hear you.

I lead a double-life

ANDREW I NEED MY SLIPPER BACK.

(There's something about not getting enough sleep) I love giving you my full attention when I can. If it makes you feel good, it makes me feel good.

I need a FRIEND. Its simple.

I NEED JAMES MORRISON'S LATEST.

I need people to STOP LYING.

Okay okay I'm just gonna apply! Whatever happens I'll deal with it later!

Oh sod it. I think I need more sleep.

We all want, what we can't have

Dear Diary,

Been SUPER BUSY. Training hard and pw-ing almost as hard. I am TIRED. But I think I'm a pretty happy person right now. If only I could make up my mind about that H3 business. You know what, I shall go do a little research on that now. Right now. And after that I shall watch ep 6 of gossip girl.

Oh and my answer to your question, is that we all live and breathe for different reasons. You just gotta find yours :) And hey, when you do, tell me all about it. Cause some of us really shouldn't be alone in a world like this.

xoxo,
Therese

An intense, unblinking gaze.

Admiration and Trepidation do not bid well with each other
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We had this one where we'd hold hands,
telling each other we'd stop round the bend.
That bend we fixed, it never came,
Stupid game, stupid game.

Leaving town, you're taking the train.
Many say I'm foolish.
We had the sunshine now the rain,
no good reason, stupid game.

We had this one where I stopped calling
I made you wait, for fear of falling
We grew apart, in our own pain,
All this time, stupid game.

Very, very, extraordinary

1. I don't know if I should take up a H3.

2. I can't decide if I want to be an OGL.

3. I'm torn between having a dresser within my wardrobe, or a separate one outside of it.

4. I'm having second thoughts about OCIP.

5. I quit netball on monday.

can you hear me?

How did we get here?

It's decided.

I will watch Twilight when the movie comes out, then I will read the book. I really thought I wouldn't bother myself with something everybody is crazy about. Two years down the road I'd read it, maybe. But things are slightly different now.

PARAMORE IS IN THEIR SOUNDTRACK! A spankin' new song called Decode which I've listened to for about all evening. Conclusion is: Paramore never fails. And if Paramore loves Twilight, SO DO I!

There is something I see in you
It might kill me
I want it to be true

Oh. It's October.

"The ultimate measure of a man is not where he stands in moments of comfort and convenience, but where he stands at times of challenge and controversy."
-Martin Luther King Jr

Choice. A heavy word for six letters.

"We must learn our limits. We are all something, but none of us are everything."
-Blaise Pascal

I was uncertain if I should keep my mouth shut

"It should be remembered that childhood is not a natural occurence. There was a time when children were treated like small adults. Childhood is an invention, a social construct, made possible by society as it increased in sophistication and resource. Above all, childhood is a privilege."

There was netball training today in school at 8. I really enjoy training with the netball girls. There are so few of us, it's like our own thing. Anyway, there was a discussion held about closing down the CCA, and how if we continue running, it would be without the school's support. I didn't know, and still don't know, what to think of this. I wish somebody would shake me and tell me what to think, or do. I understand that the school is spread very thin among its many sport CCAs. I understand that netball has not brought home anything in the past I-have-no-clue how many years. But I dunno, I also know that netball matters quite alot to us 8 girls. Like I said, I don't know what to think.

There is also news that next year, the netball and floorball seasons will clash. They will clash. Clash, as in, Happen At the Same Time. LIKE [insert an expletive of your choice]!

Pros:
Both my seasons will end earlier = more time to recover and study for As

Cons:
I can't be fully committed to netball = letting the netball girls and Ms Teoh down.
I can't be fully committed to floorball = letting the floorball girls, Mr Loke and Yan down.
I will be completely streched = little energy for anything else = studies can go fly kite.

More and more, I see walls of different enormities appear before me. They are so bent on making this path a hard one. I don't know if I chose the right path, but whether it is wrong or right, since I have chosen this one, I should stick to it. (All while thinking bugger, I should have seen this coming huh.)

I could say, "Hey the haters were right. I bit off more than I could chew".

Or I can say "Bring the fucker on."

"No child as it grows older should be allowed to forget that its parents, as embodiments of society, are the ones who grant this privilege, and do so at their own expense."