Damn that girl she's scandalous

That probably just makes me weird.

Is it worth it? This energy expended.
I should be honest, without the fear.

Go to bed, Therese.

I don't think it's fair that you get the best of both worlds

Scorpio: If things feel flat, tell your guy what you want. But being too demanding will make him nervous so keep it balanced!

then again

Scorpio: Living small isn't for you and with your tastes changing, keep your options open to meet interesting guys who'll blow your mind.

Hey don't judge me for taking my horoscope seriously.

I feel so untouched

Something stirred inside of me.

Some stars get stuck to each other

I auditioned for The Naughty Lady of Shady Lane

I am happy ")

He wrapped me in a sigh

The how, I can't recall.
Now I'm staring at what once was the wall.
Separating East and West,
and now they meet amidst the broad daylight.

So this is where you are, and this is where I am.
Somewhere between unsure, and a hundred.

It's hard, I must confess.
I'm banking on the rest, to clear away.
Cause we have spoken everything.
Everything short of our love.

You right where you are, from right where I am.
Somewhere between unsure, and a hundred.

Who's to say it's wrong?
Who's to say that it's not right?

Okay, I woke up in heaven today.

You kissed me, I floated away.

Trusting someone is a wonderful feeling. A completedness. It's not just about being wholeheartedly open, but also about the knowing that this someone is wholeheartedly open with you too. When you trust someone, and I'm using this word in it's most consequential meaning, you won't be afraid of showing vulnerability, weakness. Something that could break you. It takes you to a scary, scary place, but also the most comforting. If you allow yourself to feel that fear, you allow someone else in to comfort you. You give up pieces of yourself, subject it to judgement, he can use it them in any way he chooses. But you trust him, and he gives you pieces of himself, too.

Someone let me down.

Truth is, I will never trust anyone enough to be vulnerable like that.

Lips quiver, oh honey, go on and cry me a river.

Never even left the ground

Hey guess what. It turns out that that giganto-normous gust of wind, I was talkin bout yesterday, was just a small part in a bigger picture. If you ain't got no clue what I'm on about, check out the news on the weather here in our once-sunny island. Wind's the new sunshine YO.

There are too many relevant things to blog about and I can't decide which I wanna post! Basically, school SUCKZBALLS, floorball is going AWESOME, and there's this big mighty gust of wind that just swept through my house leaving my study in a slightly less than disastrous state. No kidding.

I am so deliriously happy right now.

It was a spiteful thing to do

I've got a right to be wrong, my mistakes will make me strong.

My day consisted of four parts. 1, a half-hearted attempt at organizing my notes and files, bracing myself for the looming start of the school term (can I have a collective groan please?). That didn't work out like I planned. I abandoned my quest halfway, only to carry out a 3 hr phone call that can't be any good for my already-only-semi-lucid brain. Part 2 was physics tuition at Orchard Plaza. Actually the more important thing that happened during part 2 is that I went to starbucks and ordered, for the first time, something that ISN'T a signature iced chocolate. But no one cares, I know. Okay 3, after tuition, I went to the Heeren and got my schoolbag. Finally 4, the squishy train ride home, which doesn't really deserve one whole part by itself, but is only monumental cause of the strange people in my cabin. Hmm I think everyone looks a little queerer up close. Maybe it was just me feeling nauseous from the claustrophobia.

I came up with a perfect resolve for 2009! Y'know I haven't really penned down anything much about the coming year because I'm an escapist like that. But also cause I haven't found anything good enough to chew on, really. But last night, chatting with S online, he gave me a thought. I'm tired of wading in the murky waters of I-don't-know-I-can't-be-sure. In 2009, I resolve to be a girl who knows what I want. I refuse to be packed in the same box filled with girls who are content hiding behind a veil of uncertainty! The cloth is coming off! The decision making has got to start. I'm gonna make up my mind. No more putting off the choice-making and skirting around my options. So ask me what I want. This time, I won't disappoint.

Vodka and a packet of cigarettes, that's all it used to be but now, sniffin' on snow when you're feelin' low, suffocating dreams that could have. Maybe for a minute I'd be down with that, but it don't take long for me to see the light. You swore you had control of it, when I stepped out you slipped on your supply.

The last guy had me so wrong

Last night, I was thrown off balance, and now things are changing. Not in your favour, either.

I had to collect my pants from plaza sing today so I decided to meet K and catch up a little. Mmm we shared a slice of cake from secret recipe (reminds me of new yr's eve) and then he good-naturedly followed me on my haphazard attempt at new yr's shopping. Well, so I spent a little of my just-cashed-in allowance for this year. Can I just say that retail therapy works wonders? Completely took my mind of things. Then we sardined our way to pasir ris by train and had japanese for dinner. Yummo. Oh and I met HuiWen there. Which is kinda cool. The last time I saw her was maybe 4 years ago.

Oh today in school I exchanged a few words with D in the gym alley. Haha dude. You need a new dyejob. And you still owe me $$!

Feels like insomnia

I HAVE season 4 dvds of Grey's Anatomy.

I HAVEN'T transferred my cards from my old wallet, to my new one.

I LOVE listening to Sophia by Nerina Pallot even though it's from so long ago.

I HATE having to cringe at new songs on the radio.

I SHOULD sit down somewhere and think really hard about what to say and when to say it.

I SHOULDN'T procrastinate.

I BELIEVE in a thing called love.

I KNOW it'll be awhile before I understand it.

I HEARD about giving as good as you get.

I SAID you'd better be worth my time.

Girl you wanna hate

Gonna make this short and sweet cause I HAVE A LIFE and I HAVE TO BE PLACES.

Hmph.

Anyways I've replaced my stolen phone already, so I'm back in business. Yeah the mourning has ended. I will always look back at this bleak period in my life and think of the pain and darkness that engulfed my very soul. Oh woe is me.

Yeah I know I sound like a pathetic self-absorbed teen who can't live a day without technology. But that's cause.. I am one.

you either wanna be with me, or be me

And now THIS?

2009 is cursed.

Kiss me and make it all okay. THIS INSTANT!