It's so hot, we're steaming up your glasses
I have a habit of sidestepping the real issues and blowing up the non issues. I try to make myself feel better by ignoring the painful stuff. But it's almost too hard not to notice, that this is going nowhere and i am accomplishing nothing. Why is it so hard to be light, so hard to be flighty. I'm missing something but i dont know what. I'm needing something, but i don't know who.
Tomorrow's a busy day. Four hours of jamming and tuition and a really long list of things to buy. I really really hope tuition works out. I NEED to clear my midyears. DESPERATELY. One wonders what's the chance of me retaining. Hmm, hair-raising, that thought. And jamming, GOSH, old songs and their structures. Yes, brilliant, but so hard for me to catch=( i gotta be quicker. OH and anyone knows where to get a good tambourine?
The day after tomorrow is the SRJC match. 3.20pm at kallang netball centre. We are only as strong as our weakest link. But i simply cannot perform knowing i am that link. I crumble when you pile on the expectations, and i cannot support the hopes of the whole team on my shoulders. I wish this would get better for me.
After the match i shall return to school for the dance concert. SHI HUA is performing, so alyssa and i shall be there to show our undying support. Not to mention, i really wanna see this zinc dude. WHO ARE YOU AND WHAT HAVE YOU DONE TO SHI HUA! =) good to know some of us still have time for love.
Today we shall end on a happy note, i'll leave what i want to scream to you for another day.
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