Our Song- Taylor Swift

zip and blaze, scorch and craze

EIGHT km ftw. can't feel my legs anymore.

why is this happening now?
she's freaky and she knows it
she's freaky and i like it
you don't have a chance
unless you move the way that she likes

hmm i'm still doing it!
HOT DAMN!

I wanna push your hand in my pocket

Unlike some enlightened people who find it possible to only blog when they have intelligent input on how the world should operate, i (rather sadly, i admit) find it beyond me NOT to spout random and unintellectual, might i add SCANTY, nonsense ever so frequently. (Whoo what a long and stupendously draggy sentence.) Inconceivable as it is, beneath my cleverly placed and well layered "defence" exterior, i am but an empty shell. But who cares! Do you care? Because if you did, you either failed to notice my ineptitude early on, or wouldn't be reading this bullshit right now. Yeah the joke's on you, mate.

God, somebody put me out of my misery.

(Laps of Lust) a test of trust

I really miss the old voiceover on the mrt trains:(
Today is SHI HUA's birthday! Exciting shitxzxz. You're SEVENTEEN! <3

Seconds to Marching Bands

Chesty Nutty Bang Bang, Hairspray of the Phoenix was thoroughly enjoyable. Highly recommended, extremely hilarious. But while Joakim Gomez is great with accents, his singing is nothing to rave about, you have been warned.


Another part of the heart
Storm still
White spaces are not
But tune out what is

Rode hard and put away wet.

Results are out tomorrow. I am calm. And i'm not panicking. I'm just totally shit scared thats all. Oh and i don't think it'll be a good idea to call me if you wanna find out how i did.. Maybe just a message is enough.

Well. I'm off to watch a play at the drama centre.. Can't rmb what it's called. Just right to keep my mind off other tiring things.

Make sure this won't go away
Shut your eyes
Make sure this won't go away
Maybe this time if you're ready
But i'll hold on to this for now.

missing from this photo: Qianren

Something Worth Fighting For

Today's training was fierce. 18-round circuit. Thats like omg damn long! Haha. And in the end club training got cancelled so i followed peanut to OG barbeque. Which actually wasn't so much of a bbq, but more of walking there and back. Still i had a good time. School makes me so sleepy.

some people run
right into the fire
some people hide
their every desire

Any ideas on the upcoming music fest?:) I'm itching to do SOMETHING. Anything.

Game on, wide open.

sometimes though rarely
i slip and out
pushed, away and far from
here and now
let me be immersed
wide open and scared
remind me of you
again and again and again.

I'm getting comfy at VJ but results are rumoured to be coming out soon. i hope 08S51 will survive this!

Voice of Truth and Vapid Insecurities.

Now that our classblog links here, i'll have to be careful what i type.. No more suaning teachers!

how do you have everything and nothing?

Call me when you get this.

CLASS SPIRIT ROCKS MY SOCKSZXZ. 08S51 makes life in VJ bearable. I feel really lucky. Anyway, so far i haven't been trying to keep up with any of the work given to us, i don't see the point when we'll just have to go through this again after 2nd intake. Plus i enjoy having people do my homework for me! Liberating. Everyone should try it.

I think all i need is a constant. It's like i revolve around searching for one and being hung up when i can't find one. I swing back and forth though it's mostly empty spaces of nothing. I don't know why i keep going, or why i need to, all i feel is lapses of fleeting smiles and a clenching heart. Maybe that's all it takes to keep me sane. But defining it, would be so so inappropriate, i'll never get it right.

Baby, if you're still awake..

McBroken. "It's shocking how many addictions exist."

Doing the nasty, serving out my time.

I saw it coming.

Existentialism, why we're not slowing down.

Sorry for the deflated state of my blog. It's hard to find time to get online when you reach home everyday at around 9 after training. And i train 1,2,4 and 5. Today's my only free day. PLUS school ends early on wednesdays so i'm a happy camper:) anyway, many things have happened in the past few days, and that in itself is the incredible part. who knew that all it takes is a few days for things to go 180. On a lighter note, training feels damn good actually. And all the aching (sorry i know i've been complaining NON STOP about this) is a welcomed change. It's so nice to finally be getting back to the exercising groove, and working up a sweat.

i'm looking at you
but you know this is NOT yours to win

Full Circle (We have come)

FINALLY. I am able to sit down and take a breather. Oh and last night i slept for more than the usual 6 hours. Yay me. Saturday night i went out for dinner with the extremely large extended family for ah ma's birthday, instead of mass dance at suntec. 8 course or something.. Felt like a wedding dinner. Anyway the netball friendly with rgs and yio chu kang sec came as a rather tremendous physical shock to my otherwise under-exercised and under-trained body. I could hardly get out of bed this morning, aching at places i didn't know possible. I've no idea how i'm gonna skate later.

It's not meant to be so hard. I can't breathe and I can't think, when you say these things to me.

How do i know if i've grown?

Not physically, but in any other sense. Is it suppose to dawn on you that hey! It's happenning! or maybe you'd recieve some sort of an alert. Like a tingling. I don't know! I've always wondered when people go "I've grown so much from this experience," how they're able to tell. Perhaps now they are able to do something they couldn't have a few days back? Or maybe they were able all along, just unaware. Maybe they feel more mature? But then again maturity is wholly subjective and someone who thinks they're super mature might be anything but.

I'm so so tired. I will further confuse myself at a later date when i have more energy and time to post again. VJ orientation is over, i got into the combi i want, my class is fine and netball has kicked into motion. Why do I feel like something is missing. Why am I not on a permanent high?

Paramore- Decoy

hey hey baby, it's never too late.